We saw 2 semi-famous people this week end their own lives. The discussion of “depression” is rising again. I have my own thoughts on “depression” as I too have been “there”.
Depression is simply defined as : “feelings of severe despondency and dejection.”
Despondency is simply defined as: “a state of low spirits caused by loss of hope or courage.”
Dejection is simply defined as: “a sad and depressed state; low spirits.”
I don’t think depression can be so easily defined when one has to use a different word with the same meaning to define it.
People don’t usually understand depression. As a Christian however, indwelled by the Holy Spirit – it becomes quite clear what depression is, especially when you’ve felt that “depression” yourself.
If I were to define it in my normal, brutally honest and harsh terms – I would say depression is a self pitying, selfish, ungrateful and cowardly mindset. Basically the same as the definitions above, just harsher.
It is NOT a physical disorder – it is a SPIRITUAL disorder.
It is a faulty and wrong way of thinking and viewing the world as well as one’s role in it.
I too used to be depressed (as stated earlier). Before I gave my life to Jesus – I was lost. I didn’t understand what purpose my life had. I didn’t understand the reason behind this life. I had seen so much ugly in people, I felt so alone, I felt angry inside, and simply could not fathom why this life was so difficult and full of trials and troubles…why people had to be so ugly to each other. I had no hope. I wanted my life to end because I just FELT like I couldn’t go on for one more minute. I was scared I wouldn’t amount to anything. I was fearful of how my life would end up. I feared I would end up alone. I felt worthless, and unloved. I felt my financial success would never amount to anything compared to others. I had NO PURPOSE.
Jesus stopped me when I was at the end of my rope and He basically said “You are MY Creation. You are beautiful to Me. I have loved you before you came into existence and will never forsake you. I will have you do things for Me that fill you with purpose. I will bring people into your life that will understand you and help you grow and be a positive force in this world. I will bring people into your life that you will also help. I will bring REAL love into your life that will leave your cup overflowing. I will give you hope for your future. I will show you My blessings so you can learn to be grateful and enjoy even the smallest things around you that I created. You will never feel alone because you will KNOW that I am ALWAYS with you. I will give you hope for your eternity – with Me, in Heaven, for everlasting joy.”
Satan loves for us to be depressed. He loves for us to have despair. He loves it when we reach for that bottle to numb our pain. He loves it when we reach for those pills. He loves to watch us cry, alone in our dark places – all while saying “Where is your God now?”
He knows that if he can have you take your life before you reach for your waiting, merciful, patient and grace-giving God, he’s won your soul. Of course he’s going to want to hold you down. Of course he’s going to want to keep you in that dark space of emotional turmoil. Of course he’s going to use you any possible way he can to make an example of you – all the while God is standing a bit further off in the distance with His hand stretched out to you.
We have the power to overcome our “depression”; all it takes is one little action: reaching out to Jesus. If we would just remember in those dark times to RUN to Him instead of the pills or the liquor or the sex or whatever is a vice for us – there would be no depression.
I know…. the psychology world today loves to tell us that this is a “brain chemistry” problem that can only be cured by pills or what have you, but I can tell you different. Scripture even tells us that with FAITH as small as a mustard seed, we can move whole mountains out of their place. What that means is – ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE….if only we have a wee bit of faith.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the years, counselors and the psychological field can give you great tools and methods/exercises on how to handle certain situations in our lives that feel too hard for us – like journaling, etc, but they will NEVER solve your perceived problems. You and Jesus can do that together. He IS the ONLY cure-all.
If He can create everything around us, allow us to be born….allow us to continue to breathe and live until our appointed time…. how can He NOT help you with your thought patterns and processes? Think about it.
Stop the insanity. Stop the pity party. Stop the self loathing and get off your butt and go to Him. Watch Him change your life from a rut to a run. Watch Him transform your thought processes from depressed to exuberant and joyful. Watch Him show you how to be grateful instead of ungrateful. Watch Him show you how to be at peace, when the world around you is falling apart.
Matthew 19:26But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.
Peace to you all, today and every day.